My Mother-In-Law is very ill. She feels that she’s at the end of her years. My family (without me because of time constraints and logistics and a high-need puppy) is headed there as I type.

It’s sad.

It’s puzzling.

It’s frustrating.

It’s not fair.

Today is my hubby’s birthday. I’m struggling with very mixed feelings. I hate when life culminates in pain and sorrow. It just feels so wrong to me. It’s bad enough when my kids have to go to bed sad.

I realize I’m missing that piece of information (which God hasn’t seen fit to share with mankind) which makes this all sensible.

I want it to be fair. I want to understand and to reply “Oh! I get it.”

I want my Mother-In-Law’s life to finish peacefully and comfortably. She deserves that!! She’s had so much pain and loss. She’s seen so many tragic things. Why can’t the last days of her life be sweet?

Maybe they will.

Maybe this is just a blip on the reality screen and she’ll recover (though, all indications are that it isn’t).I’d appreciate prayer for her and for our family as we face this with grace and kindness and helplessness.